Local Train......
Female Compartment .. A mix of 70% Males, 30% Females....Remaining 50% females on the platform with a sad face, couldnt get into the train,cursing themselves for their fate all the time.
This is the scene i see reguarly in Local Trains....
Train stops at every stop for 1 min and all the male people will be hanging at the entrance because of which all females obviously cant get into the compartment.
Result is, will remain waiting for the next train.
Everyday, i get aggrevated when i see males getting into female compartment…
Used to pass on my serious looks at them…Who ever comes to see me will for sure come to understand that I am cursing to max extent…..
Few days ago, in a heavy rush train got to see few males of 25-30yrs having quite a good amount of fun in ladies compartment…
Couldn’t resist, in that heavy rush took my step ahead and blasted them.
So this funda goes on daily…
But today in the evening when I am coming back from Office….
When the train stopped, I found it real hard to get into the train, as it stops only for 1 min and there are more than 20 ppl rushing to get into the train, when the entrance door is heavily filled with people standing….
Somehow struggled and got into the train and found 2 things to my surprise.
One is , it is half filled with males standing at the entrance.
Second is, the rest of the compartment is having lots of place to stand, inspite of which people were standing at the entrance and making it tough for other people to get into.
Sudden rush of anger…….
Stood with a red face looking at all the males stood over there…..
Then came a girl……
Lean..Fair complexioned tall girl….
Took the FIRST STEP…….
Very confidently started calling all the males and saying “Next station, get down from this compartment and get into the general compartment, Hope you are not a female to get into female compartment”
In a very confident tone ofcourse……
Simultaneously, she started asking all the people standing at the entrance , “Where do you want to get down?”
“Sec Station“
“Come back, Sec station is far, you need not stand at the entrance , on the way, not giving way to people getting in”
She was keeping on talking to people and telling them how important it is to make sure that they give way to people who are getting in as the train stops only for 1 min and the next time comes only after 30 mins.
She also made sure that all the males got down.
It was okay this time as ppl heard her, but there will be people who will not hear to her, on the contrary may shout on her……..
But she will be keeping on telling so that atleast few people will listen to her and from the next time will make sure not to repeat that….
To be precise, she got nothing to do with anything over there..But it was her social responsibility that made her take the FIRST STEP……
I am reminded of the song written by Famous Telugu Lyricist( My Fav) Sirivennela Seetramasastry Sir....
Evaro okaru epudo apudu..nadavaraa mundugaa ato ito eto vaipu
One or the Other ..today or tommorow....
Should take the first step,either this way or that way
modati vaadu eppudoo okkadey mari......
first person is always One
modati adugu eppudoo vontarey mari.. venuka vacchuvaallaku baata ayinadi..
First Step is always Alone…Becoming the way for the people who follow
kadalaru evvaroo vekuva vacchina anukoni kodi kootha nidarapodugaa.. jagathiki melukolupu maanukodugaa
Hen is not sleeping assuming that none will move though its morning……It didn’t stop waking up the world
modati chinuku sootikaa dooki raanidey..mabbu kongu chaatugaa vodigi dhaagite.. vaana dhaara raadhugaa nela daariki..praanamantu ledugaa brathakataaniki..
Until the first rain drop comes without hiding behind the cloud..Rain will not be able to come to earth..which is lifeliner for human beings…
chedharaka podugaa chikkani cheekati….miNuguru rekka chaatu chinni kanthiki..daaniki lekka ledhu kalaratiri..
( here the author was referring to the Fly which by nature gets a light kind of glow in its wings that glitters in the nights)
The small fly is making it possible with his small inbuilt light to bring light in the dark at least for a while..That fly doesn’t care for dark nites
pedhavi pramidha nilapani navvu jyothini..reppa venaka aapani kanti neetini…saagaleka aagithe dhaari tarugunaa? jaali choopi theeramey dariki cherunaa..?
Behind the lip let the Light of Smile flourish…Stop the Rain of sorrow behind the lip….Failing and stopping in btw the journey will not reduce the way….Will the Shore come to you out of mercy for your helplessness?
yugamulu saagina ningini taakaka…yegasina alala aasa alasipodugaa…otami oppukuntoo aagipodhugaa
from years together though the waves are not able to reach the sky, still they haven’t yet accepted their Failure and still keep on trying..
entha vedi endakaa ollu mandithe..antha vaadi aavirai velli cheeradha..antha goppa sooryudu kallu mooyada..nalla mabbu kammitey challbaaradaa..?
How hot may be the sun..atlast those hot winds will evaporate…
Even the great sun is closing his eyes & becoming cool once the cool moon comes
In between her work in the train :) she got few time to talk to me where in came to know few things about her like...her name is "Subhadra" and she works for Value Labs....Hyderbad
Be the change you want to see in the world………..
Take the First Step……..
Ofcourse from a tiny issue as this to a bigger issue as VOTING your leader who is going to Lead the COUNTRY…..
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Miracle of SubConscious Mind
The Alchemist
Read this Novel very long back….
Choice of books always varies from person to person…and of course perception plays a bigger part in liking or disliking a book….
Particularly this Novel proved my theory…
Being a book bee, got few friends in the circle who are the same , When discussions used to go on books…every one were astonished to know that I never read Alchemist…..That’s how I happened to read it…
Story in Brief…
There lives a shepherd who is safe and sane with his work and earnings, he is in love with a wool shop owner daughter and dreams/plans to get married to her.
A continuous dream taunts him daily, a dream which contains a small boy telling this shepherd to go to Egyptian pyramids where he can find a treasure with which he can lead his next life very luxuriously…
Initially he will be very skeptic to go ahead with that dream…he goes to a female who is capable of interpreting dreams, and he asks her to interpret this dream and guide him accordingly. For that she demands half of the treasure he is going to get, which makes him take his step back.
Later on, the dream becomes a continuous dream, coming every night.
He happens to meet a stranger who encourages him to go ahead with his dream and reveals himself to be the King of some xyz kingdom.
King’s instigation works and Shepherd sells away his sheep and with the money he is set on the journey.
To go to Egyptian pyramids, he need to stop ahead before and from there as no conveyance is available; he needs to go by walk.
After reaching that stop, he will be fooled by some thief’s and remains with no single penny.
Curses himself for coming so long based on dream..but later on will determine to go ahead, starts working in a glassware shop for more than a year.
With the savings he is again set on the trip to Pyramids.
There he will be not able to find any treasure as dreamt but will be caught by thief’s who again will take away his unused savings .
One thief, on knowing that Shepherd is there from a long place, asks him why he was there….
For which shepherd is compelled to tell his story of dream, listening to which the Thief will start laughing and will tell him that some time ago even he had a dream of having treasure somewhere in the east beneath the tree of a shepherd’s home.
Listening to which shepherd will feel delighted as he now understood where his treasure actually is.
That’s where story comes to an end.
Somehow I didn’t like this novel at all. I hold a quite different opinion from rest of all readers of this novel I found till date. Haven’t found anyone till date who said that they found this novel bore, on the contrary this is found to be the most inspiring novels and best work of Paul Coelho which taught to chase the dream to yield it.
When thought deep, may be Paul Coelho wanted to tell the same and succeeded in telling the same as a lot of people understood that, but inspiration and motivation is something which is very subjective and varies from person to person. Again depends on the level of strength one have when it comes to Inspirational and motivational works.
In discussions, I heard different opinions from friends, a set of friends who like inspirational & motivational books and a set for whom to inspire & motivate the novel needs to be speaking in a very strong, unbeatable and impeccable way.
I too fall in the second set and I like authors who can really inspire as if Ayn Rand J
Why to Think Aloud about a book which doesn’t have anything to impress as such?
Is it to tell everyone not to read as you didn’t find anything much interesting in that?
Answer is a straight “No”.
Took this novel to write about, as it taught me a subtle way of psychology when thought in depth.
When 100 people say something to be right then of course it is becoming right.
If 10000 people say a book is good then the one person who don’t find it appealing starts thinking if he missed out anything in that, and as everyone is claiming that to be the best, maybe it is.
In my childhood, I happened to know about one Telugu Author Novels, his name is Gudipati Venkata Chalam, he is very famous for Feminism.
Thought of reading his works, but couldn’t, as my dad warn me not to.
I happened to see a lot of people or rather intellectuals talking about the inspiration chalam gave them.
That droved me to read his works and I started with THE BEST novel by the name “Maidanam” (Which meant Ground).
It is a very small book of close to 190 pages which I was able to complete in a stretch of 2 hrs.
Aftermath was a bit weird as I started feeling that I was there sitting in a Red light area for 2 hrs.
That’s how the novel was ( My stance) and I couldn’t find any point why it became a inspiration for so many so called intellectuals.
I have a friend who is highly intellectual, so my curiosities lead to ask him why and what he likes in Chalam works.
He answered, “Being a male, he is very open to feminism and the way he portrays”.
I was bewildered to listen to such a response from such a sensible person and asked him what book made him feel so and what all the books he read are.
Then he mumbled, I didn’t read much other than his Musings and that too for 40 pages.
Then I came to understand why Chalam became a famous writer and how.
Is he is a good writer or not is obviously pertains to one’s own perceptions but should not be just because someone else says it is.
The same theory of 100000 people claiming him to be the best.
My friend being sensible enough still was in an impression that chalam is a good author as everyone is applauding his work.
When I told him the story of Maidanam and asked him to tell me one point about feminism, he answered that he need to read it and confirm.
After reading, he even started wondering what made him think Chalam a good author.
So the Core physcology of on and average human being relies on the impression his brain got.
Subconscious brain…..It plays a major role….
How sensible a person may be, when he happens to listen continuously from people about some work to be the good, his subconscious brain receives those and forms a quite a good impression and that’s how one start like/dislike few things/people without any prior opinion
A better example is… I have a friend who hates some XYZ political party very much. When I asked why he hates, he couldn’t give a solid reason.
When thought he himself came out with an answer that, because from his childhood his family keeps on supporting some other party and opposes this XYZ party, it left an impression in his mind and that’s how it worked.
A simple question…
When Subconscious mind got that amount of strength..then there are many situations where in a lot of people say something is right which I find grossly wrong….then why all those people’s words couldn’t get hold of my Subconscious mind????
Because your brain was THINKING, this is more strengthened food for Subconscious mind… J
So as a sum up, the lesson was, don’t let any insensible statement takeover the subconscious brain.
Keep THINKING in all possible ways…..
--Srujana
Read this Novel very long back….
Choice of books always varies from person to person…and of course perception plays a bigger part in liking or disliking a book….
Particularly this Novel proved my theory…
Being a book bee, got few friends in the circle who are the same , When discussions used to go on books…every one were astonished to know that I never read Alchemist…..That’s how I happened to read it…
Story in Brief…
There lives a shepherd who is safe and sane with his work and earnings, he is in love with a wool shop owner daughter and dreams/plans to get married to her.
A continuous dream taunts him daily, a dream which contains a small boy telling this shepherd to go to Egyptian pyramids where he can find a treasure with which he can lead his next life very luxuriously…
Initially he will be very skeptic to go ahead with that dream…he goes to a female who is capable of interpreting dreams, and he asks her to interpret this dream and guide him accordingly. For that she demands half of the treasure he is going to get, which makes him take his step back.
Later on, the dream becomes a continuous dream, coming every night.
He happens to meet a stranger who encourages him to go ahead with his dream and reveals himself to be the King of some xyz kingdom.
King’s instigation works and Shepherd sells away his sheep and with the money he is set on the journey.
To go to Egyptian pyramids, he need to stop ahead before and from there as no conveyance is available; he needs to go by walk.
After reaching that stop, he will be fooled by some thief’s and remains with no single penny.
Curses himself for coming so long based on dream..but later on will determine to go ahead, starts working in a glassware shop for more than a year.
With the savings he is again set on the trip to Pyramids.
There he will be not able to find any treasure as dreamt but will be caught by thief’s who again will take away his unused savings .
One thief, on knowing that Shepherd is there from a long place, asks him why he was there….
For which shepherd is compelled to tell his story of dream, listening to which the Thief will start laughing and will tell him that some time ago even he had a dream of having treasure somewhere in the east beneath the tree of a shepherd’s home.
Listening to which shepherd will feel delighted as he now understood where his treasure actually is.
That’s where story comes to an end.
Somehow I didn’t like this novel at all. I hold a quite different opinion from rest of all readers of this novel I found till date. Haven’t found anyone till date who said that they found this novel bore, on the contrary this is found to be the most inspiring novels and best work of Paul Coelho which taught to chase the dream to yield it.
When thought deep, may be Paul Coelho wanted to tell the same and succeeded in telling the same as a lot of people understood that, but inspiration and motivation is something which is very subjective and varies from person to person. Again depends on the level of strength one have when it comes to Inspirational and motivational works.
In discussions, I heard different opinions from friends, a set of friends who like inspirational & motivational books and a set for whom to inspire & motivate the novel needs to be speaking in a very strong, unbeatable and impeccable way.
I too fall in the second set and I like authors who can really inspire as if Ayn Rand J
Why to Think Aloud about a book which doesn’t have anything to impress as such?
Is it to tell everyone not to read as you didn’t find anything much interesting in that?
Answer is a straight “No”.
Took this novel to write about, as it taught me a subtle way of psychology when thought in depth.
When 100 people say something to be right then of course it is becoming right.
If 10000 people say a book is good then the one person who don’t find it appealing starts thinking if he missed out anything in that, and as everyone is claiming that to be the best, maybe it is.
In my childhood, I happened to know about one Telugu Author Novels, his name is Gudipati Venkata Chalam, he is very famous for Feminism.
Thought of reading his works, but couldn’t, as my dad warn me not to.
I happened to see a lot of people or rather intellectuals talking about the inspiration chalam gave them.
That droved me to read his works and I started with THE BEST novel by the name “Maidanam” (Which meant Ground).
It is a very small book of close to 190 pages which I was able to complete in a stretch of 2 hrs.
Aftermath was a bit weird as I started feeling that I was there sitting in a Red light area for 2 hrs.
That’s how the novel was ( My stance) and I couldn’t find any point why it became a inspiration for so many so called intellectuals.
I have a friend who is highly intellectual, so my curiosities lead to ask him why and what he likes in Chalam works.
He answered, “Being a male, he is very open to feminism and the way he portrays”.
I was bewildered to listen to such a response from such a sensible person and asked him what book made him feel so and what all the books he read are.
Then he mumbled, I didn’t read much other than his Musings and that too for 40 pages.
Then I came to understand why Chalam became a famous writer and how.
Is he is a good writer or not is obviously pertains to one’s own perceptions but should not be just because someone else says it is.
The same theory of 100000 people claiming him to be the best.
My friend being sensible enough still was in an impression that chalam is a good author as everyone is applauding his work.
When I told him the story of Maidanam and asked him to tell me one point about feminism, he answered that he need to read it and confirm.
After reading, he even started wondering what made him think Chalam a good author.
So the Core physcology of on and average human being relies on the impression his brain got.
Subconscious brain…..It plays a major role….
How sensible a person may be, when he happens to listen continuously from people about some work to be the good, his subconscious brain receives those and forms a quite a good impression and that’s how one start like/dislike few things/people without any prior opinion
A better example is… I have a friend who hates some XYZ political party very much. When I asked why he hates, he couldn’t give a solid reason.
When thought he himself came out with an answer that, because from his childhood his family keeps on supporting some other party and opposes this XYZ party, it left an impression in his mind and that’s how it worked.
A simple question…
When Subconscious mind got that amount of strength..then there are many situations where in a lot of people say something is right which I find grossly wrong….then why all those people’s words couldn’t get hold of my Subconscious mind????
Because your brain was THINKING, this is more strengthened food for Subconscious mind… J
So as a sum up, the lesson was, don’t let any insensible statement takeover the subconscious brain.
Keep THINKING in all possible ways…..
--Srujana
Monday, January 19, 2009
Woods to World of Music
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Dusk…. At a sea shore… sitting in the sand……watching all the waves ….. looking at the sun … Feeling the pleasantness to the possible extent…
That’s how I love to spend my evenings.. and that day I was enjoying my day as I always wish
Was listening to the wonderful music that’s being played by the waves of the sea ……
Enjoying that music in the twilight of SUN …..
Brain stopped functioning long back… its all heart…. Brain doesn’t have anything to do with my state of that moment….
Somewhere a mild music was being played…. A sudden excitement ….. it was a splendid tune …I was trying to figure out with what instrument is its being played..
Saxaphone??? Noooo
Flute??? Nooo
Bass Flute??? Nooo
Veena??? Certainly not…
Guitar…. Who knows….
Then what is that ..
Became desperate to find it out…
Stood up and started in search of the place from where its being played….
Walked altogether for 15 minutes to figure out the place….
Was shocked when I have seen that urchin …he was standing at the end of the shore and got several instruments in front of him….
He got a saxaphone… a flute… Guitar…. And a keyboard…
He is playing all simultaneously and was singing a old film song…..
People passing by him were staring at him for a while..clueless of his intention of standing there at such a public place and playing those instruments aimlessly.
I stood there mesmerized ..not sure for how more time I stood so…
Enjoyed each and every chord he played….
Came back to my senses when he stopped playing them…
Observed him for a while..he got brilliant and confident looks…
He was looking into the keyboard and was writing down something…might be westren staff notation
Other than the waves and its music….Nothing else was audible at that moment .
Breaking the silence, without raising his head from the book…without even stopping writing the notation… he started talking to me…
And the first thing he said was……
“Music and Nature are the best combination..Isint it, what do u say”
Without my knowledge, I responded to him with a “Yes”
The conversation continued for a while…
“I want to buy a Congo… but its expensive… will buy it one day….”
“okay… do u know how to play it?”
“hmm..never played it…can play once I get it”
“where are you learning music “
“from the nature”
“no traditional way of learning it?”
“thought of going to a music school or a college… but everyone wanted music to be paid”
“whats wrong in that… even that’s their livelihood..”
“nothing is wrong ..nothing is right…everything depends on perception”
“so you don’t want to learn in a music college only because they want you to pay”
“No,I cant afford”
“what do your parents do”
“Who knows? I was born to them but brought up on my own…., people call me Orphan.. i call it Freedom”
“Freedom from what? “
“Affections..N..attachment”
“How are they going to bother you”
“Affection …That is the root cause of all the suffering of man kind…, when you are not attached to anyone then you don’t get to see any pain”
“oh !! then are you not attached to anything”
“I am”
“To whom”
“Music”
“Then you yourself are contradicting your philosophy…”
“Philosophy?? I even don’t know how to spell it”
“Smart enough to deviate “
“I am very much fine to answer you”
“would like to listen to that”
“Attachment towards a person lets you have the happiness of being with them, grief of having a rift with them, fear of loosing them….. , but attachment towards a art form as if MUSIC..it can show you only Happiness, nothing else, no Greif, no pain, no fear.
passion towards an art will raise your energy levels to achieve something..do something..feel something….
You can always feel music…it can always be yours …you don’t have a fear of loosing it… you don’t have a concept of having a rift.. only thing you experience is Happiness.Joy..Ecstacy….,
”Music --A Complete Bliss” that’s what I prefer to call“ “
“Then a positive attachment..isint it”
“might be”
“so what do you do for your livelihood”
“I work in coal mines, nearer to this place”
“where do you live”
“there in that woods”
“By any chance, Have you had your education??”
“Life taught me more than any school and college”
“So you call yourself educated”
“I don’t find a reason to think about that, education is not the criteria for intelligence”
“you sound quite philosophical, how old are you”
“not sure, might be 20, life is very short”
“why do u say that? You are hardly 20, and you have 50 more years to go with”
“Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music”
“True, where did you get these instruments from”
“they are all mine, I bought it, from past 6 years I have done savings to get all this”
“that sounds very interesting, you got a great inclination towards music, from when do you have this interest”
“from the day when I have first seen a Kuku singing ,sitting on a tree, I felt it very melodious, I started imitating it… it started reciprocating… that’s how I started with Music.. my debut with a tune… Kuku taught me what music is…
Whenever I fail to find a good music teacher, she comes for me into those woods, early in the morning and she starts singing for me..
Giving me a lot of strength and assurance , I feel like she is trying to tell me “Music is not a language to be learnt …Music is not a subject to be taught… what all happens in Music Schools and colleges is ..people transferring what all they know about Music to people who feel they hardly know what music is…
I get reenergized…I feel happy about her.. and I gift her back with a tune..that I compose for her then and there itself”
“oh !! do you compose?? “
“Yes I do”
“how do you know the composition techniques?”
“Harmony, Pitch, Melody, chords.. these are all the technical jargons that you all educated musicians make use of
I am unaware of any such things…
A simple tune gets into my mind and I keep it on paper and will decide which instrument I can use for playing what…
That’s how I compose….”
“sounds interesting, but ,I have seen you writing down western staff notation”
“I don’t even understand what you said just now… you might have seen me writing down something few time ago and you would have mistaken that for something else”
“might be, then what is that you were writing”
“I just make a note of what all the tunes that came into my mind. I do maintain them on a paper and I write it the way i can remember”
“Then how come you even got to know those technical musical jargons? You said you are uneducated”
“Did i? “ he chuckled
“I think you did”
“ No madam, what all I said was, Life taught me more which I prefer to call education.
Well, I haven’t done any schooling but learnt from my senior at work, to read and write, felt that’s enough.
I wanted even that, to read some articles about musicians, which I do find in nearby musical stores.
I am exploring on ‘how to become a musician’ “
“oh!! Then do you want to become a film music director?”
“if films are the only media for my music to be exposed, then yes I want to do that initially
Later on, I have a lot of other plans as well, to let people have more wonderful music in much different ways, other than film music.
In our country, film music became the only medium for music, I will change that”
He sounded quite confident and determined while he said that.
I asked him “ do you know how difficult it is to get into film music, work there and withstand everything and prove yourself”
“7 years ago when I thought of playing an instrument, daily I used to go to Musical store where all instruments were on sale…I used to play them there for a while….. I dreamt of buying them.
When my friends at work came to know that, they sounded the way you did now, I was told how hard it is to buy everything and how difficult it is to make out time and learn music and how hard its to compose.
They even said that I know nothing about the genres and trends of music and its market now.
They talked about all the impossibilities, and I have seen all the possibilities
And now, I own all these musical instruments, and I own 89 tunes which are ready to be released for people who feel music”
“You sound very confident”
“that’s what drives you to your goal.
And achieving what you wanted to is the real bliss
I believed that I will buy them, I bought it.
I believed that, without any understanding about technical aspects of music, I can compose. I did
When ever I believe myself, I have done it
I made things possible
I overcome the difficulties and that’s how my rest of the journey will go
If I think I can, I can”
“I wish you all the best…”
“ Thank you.. wait for the day when you will see all the media rushing their headlines ‘A boy from Woods to World of Music.. ‘, a day when all the music stores will be out of stock for all of my albums, a day when film music is no more the alone medium for music, a day when trends in music inspires the youth, a day when people will come to know that ‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible’ ”
I went speechless, felt a sudden jolt.
Breaking the silence, he started playing a tune on his keyboard.
Magnificent , all my senses felt the tune. Then, probably I came to understand why he sounded so confident. He got the caliber, and this world will come to know it soon.
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At any time in my life, when I was down, when I felt defeated, when I really felt something is impossible, I was reminded of his words
‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible’
And it always worked for me.
Every day in the morning, I wake up to see the paper with the head line “Woods to World of Music”
That day when everyone will come to know that ‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible
I tune the Music channels to see the documentary on how a urchin tunrned into a World class Musician
From past 5yrs I am waiting for that day….…
I believe, that day is nearer and I will come to see him again and I will be the one rushing to the music stores to get his collection.
After all, he believes himself
NOTE: This is a work of Fiction....
Instigation behind this work is Ilayaraja and his attitude towards life..,but it bears no resemblance with anyone including Ilayaraja- The person who is the inspiration
Dusk…. At a sea shore… sitting in the sand……watching all the waves ….. looking at the sun … Feeling the pleasantness to the possible extent…
That’s how I love to spend my evenings.. and that day I was enjoying my day as I always wish
Was listening to the wonderful music that’s being played by the waves of the sea ……
Enjoying that music in the twilight of SUN …..
Brain stopped functioning long back… its all heart…. Brain doesn’t have anything to do with my state of that moment….
Somewhere a mild music was being played…. A sudden excitement ….. it was a splendid tune …I was trying to figure out with what instrument is its being played..
Saxaphone??? Noooo
Flute??? Nooo
Bass Flute??? Nooo
Veena??? Certainly not…
Guitar…. Who knows….
Then what is that ..
Became desperate to find it out…
Stood up and started in search of the place from where its being played….
Walked altogether for 15 minutes to figure out the place….
Was shocked when I have seen that urchin …he was standing at the end of the shore and got several instruments in front of him….
He got a saxaphone… a flute… Guitar…. And a keyboard…
He is playing all simultaneously and was singing a old film song…..
People passing by him were staring at him for a while..clueless of his intention of standing there at such a public place and playing those instruments aimlessly.
I stood there mesmerized ..not sure for how more time I stood so…
Enjoyed each and every chord he played….
Came back to my senses when he stopped playing them…
Observed him for a while..he got brilliant and confident looks…
He was looking into the keyboard and was writing down something…might be westren staff notation
Other than the waves and its music….Nothing else was audible at that moment .
Breaking the silence, without raising his head from the book…without even stopping writing the notation… he started talking to me…
And the first thing he said was……
“Music and Nature are the best combination..Isint it, what do u say”
Without my knowledge, I responded to him with a “Yes”
The conversation continued for a while…
“I want to buy a Congo… but its expensive… will buy it one day….”
“okay… do u know how to play it?”
“hmm..never played it…can play once I get it”
“where are you learning music “
“from the nature”
“no traditional way of learning it?”
“thought of going to a music school or a college… but everyone wanted music to be paid”
“whats wrong in that… even that’s their livelihood..”
“nothing is wrong ..nothing is right…everything depends on perception”
“so you don’t want to learn in a music college only because they want you to pay”
“No,I cant afford”
“what do your parents do”
“Who knows? I was born to them but brought up on my own…., people call me Orphan.. i call it Freedom”
“Freedom from what? “
“Affections..N..attachment”
“How are they going to bother you”
“Affection …That is the root cause of all the suffering of man kind…, when you are not attached to anyone then you don’t get to see any pain”
“oh !! then are you not attached to anything”
“I am”
“To whom”
“Music”
“Then you yourself are contradicting your philosophy…”
“Philosophy?? I even don’t know how to spell it”
“Smart enough to deviate “
“I am very much fine to answer you”
“would like to listen to that”
“Attachment towards a person lets you have the happiness of being with them, grief of having a rift with them, fear of loosing them….. , but attachment towards a art form as if MUSIC..it can show you only Happiness, nothing else, no Greif, no pain, no fear.
passion towards an art will raise your energy levels to achieve something..do something..feel something….
You can always feel music…it can always be yours …you don’t have a fear of loosing it… you don’t have a concept of having a rift.. only thing you experience is Happiness.Joy..Ecstacy….,
”Music --A Complete Bliss” that’s what I prefer to call“ “
“Then a positive attachment..isint it”
“might be”
“so what do you do for your livelihood”
“I work in coal mines, nearer to this place”
“where do you live”
“there in that woods”
“By any chance, Have you had your education??”
“Life taught me more than any school and college”
“So you call yourself educated”
“I don’t find a reason to think about that, education is not the criteria for intelligence”
“you sound quite philosophical, how old are you”
“not sure, might be 20, life is very short”
“why do u say that? You are hardly 20, and you have 50 more years to go with”
“Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music”
“True, where did you get these instruments from”
“they are all mine, I bought it, from past 6 years I have done savings to get all this”
“that sounds very interesting, you got a great inclination towards music, from when do you have this interest”
“from the day when I have first seen a Kuku singing ,sitting on a tree, I felt it very melodious, I started imitating it… it started reciprocating… that’s how I started with Music.. my debut with a tune… Kuku taught me what music is…
Whenever I fail to find a good music teacher, she comes for me into those woods, early in the morning and she starts singing for me..
Giving me a lot of strength and assurance , I feel like she is trying to tell me “Music is not a language to be learnt …Music is not a subject to be taught… what all happens in Music Schools and colleges is ..people transferring what all they know about Music to people who feel they hardly know what music is…
I get reenergized…I feel happy about her.. and I gift her back with a tune..that I compose for her then and there itself”
“oh !! do you compose?? “
“Yes I do”
“how do you know the composition techniques?”
“Harmony, Pitch, Melody, chords.. these are all the technical jargons that you all educated musicians make use of
I am unaware of any such things…
A simple tune gets into my mind and I keep it on paper and will decide which instrument I can use for playing what…
That’s how I compose….”
“sounds interesting, but ,I have seen you writing down western staff notation”
“I don’t even understand what you said just now… you might have seen me writing down something few time ago and you would have mistaken that for something else”
“might be, then what is that you were writing”
“I just make a note of what all the tunes that came into my mind. I do maintain them on a paper and I write it the way i can remember”
“Then how come you even got to know those technical musical jargons? You said you are uneducated”
“Did i? “ he chuckled
“I think you did”
“ No madam, what all I said was, Life taught me more which I prefer to call education.
Well, I haven’t done any schooling but learnt from my senior at work, to read and write, felt that’s enough.
I wanted even that, to read some articles about musicians, which I do find in nearby musical stores.
I am exploring on ‘how to become a musician’ “
“oh!! Then do you want to become a film music director?”
“if films are the only media for my music to be exposed, then yes I want to do that initially
Later on, I have a lot of other plans as well, to let people have more wonderful music in much different ways, other than film music.
In our country, film music became the only medium for music, I will change that”
He sounded quite confident and determined while he said that.
I asked him “ do you know how difficult it is to get into film music, work there and withstand everything and prove yourself”
“7 years ago when I thought of playing an instrument, daily I used to go to Musical store where all instruments were on sale…I used to play them there for a while….. I dreamt of buying them.
When my friends at work came to know that, they sounded the way you did now, I was told how hard it is to buy everything and how difficult it is to make out time and learn music and how hard its to compose.
They even said that I know nothing about the genres and trends of music and its market now.
They talked about all the impossibilities, and I have seen all the possibilities
And now, I own all these musical instruments, and I own 89 tunes which are ready to be released for people who feel music”
“You sound very confident”
“that’s what drives you to your goal.
And achieving what you wanted to is the real bliss
I believed that I will buy them, I bought it.
I believed that, without any understanding about technical aspects of music, I can compose. I did
When ever I believe myself, I have done it
I made things possible
I overcome the difficulties and that’s how my rest of the journey will go
If I think I can, I can”
“I wish you all the best…”
“ Thank you.. wait for the day when you will see all the media rushing their headlines ‘A boy from Woods to World of Music.. ‘, a day when all the music stores will be out of stock for all of my albums, a day when film music is no more the alone medium for music, a day when trends in music inspires the youth, a day when people will come to know that ‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible’ ”
I went speechless, felt a sudden jolt.
Breaking the silence, he started playing a tune on his keyboard.
Magnificent , all my senses felt the tune. Then, probably I came to understand why he sounded so confident. He got the caliber, and this world will come to know it soon.
************************************************************
At any time in my life, when I was down, when I felt defeated, when I really felt something is impossible, I was reminded of his words
‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible’
And it always worked for me.
Every day in the morning, I wake up to see the paper with the head line “Woods to World of Music”
That day when everyone will come to know that ‘Believing oneself will turn all the impossibilities ,possible
I tune the Music channels to see the documentary on how a urchin tunrned into a World class Musician
From past 5yrs I am waiting for that day….…
I believe, that day is nearer and I will come to see him again and I will be the one rushing to the music stores to get his collection.
After all, he believes himself
NOTE: This is a work of Fiction....
Instigation behind this work is Ilayaraja and his attitude towards life..,but it bears no resemblance with anyone including Ilayaraja- The person who is the inspiration
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Pity vs Self Esteem
Do you have any idea on the Best program of these days..raising the ERP ratings of Television channels????
None other than "Musical Competitions"....
So the competition became very heavy.. Not between the participants..but between the television channels
Inorder to withstand this competition..obviously one need to think more creatively...
One channel started a Little champs program which topped for few time..
That boom stopped when all the antagonists even started the same kinda shows.....
Now More creativeness is needed...and ETV came out with a Innovative thought and started a program
BLACK ~~ COLORS OF MUSIC
Anchoring...Jhansi
Judges.... Mohankrishna..Actress Laya....Lyricist Anantha Sriram
Innovation of this prg is ..all the participants of varied ages are BLIND and they will participate in this singing competition...
program will have 9 participants..whom they introduce with alot of PITY towards them....
Anchor will tell the name of the person and few shots will be shown at that participants home along with his family... They will shoot how that particular blind person walks holding the walls..or waving hands in air....
and the background music for these few snaps will be as pathos as possible
I seriously dont understand why they want to do all these idiotic things....
To be logical... Blind people are equal to any other human being..only that they cant see...fine...help them if they want you to...but why the hell they should have a separate program for Blind people all alone..They are equally good when compared to anyone else...
Only few blind people will have hearing problem..and that count will be very less
but all the participants were pretty okay and were singing as if anyother normal person...( for that even they are normal people...as these TV people made them special..i took this way of usage)
The funny part is...THE JUDGES...
Judgment in Music competitions is subjected to happen in 2 ways..
One is to judge how good they are technically...mean to say...The Sruthi..Laya..Thaalam and raagam..
Second way is to judge..how Melodious they are when compared to others...
For the first , Judge needs to be good at Music...
For the second,Judge needs to be so passionated towards Music to differentiate between good and bad music being a sensible listener....
The 3 judges of this program may fall in the second category(?) but certainly not in the first category....
And an other thing is... Whatever the participants sings....They will keep on telling..haaa...you sang it perfectly...i couldnt control my tears...i cant explain in words..and all that nonsense...
Judge is a Judge...Logic should alone be the criteria for the judgment...certainly not Emotions....
By being emotional and giving comments..they are showing the so called PITY on them that they are blind..
but i dont think they themselves feel anything pity about themselves...
Inspite,they are So Self Esteemed that, they took the challenge of travelling so far and participate in a game show..irrespective of the pain they need to take to come so long...
That itself shows their Self Esteem which is being treated with alot of PITY by these Media...
One more Funny part of this program is...
One female singer sang in a improper way..for which one of the Judge took the pain of telling that, you need to work more..Good that he dared to give that suggestion...
Funniest part was..when the judges were commenting so...Camera will cpature the still moments of the participant..consoling gestures of the anchor...accompanied by a Pathos Violin background score...
What the HELL it meant??????
Being Blind dosent mean that they can sing improper and gain applaudes which is certainly not deserved...
yes i do accept that everyone will not be so strong enough to come and participate in the normal programs..and this particular program may give them strength and may encourage them to walk on to the dias..but that certainly dosent mean that they are expected to be given some PITY....
PITY and MERCY are for WEAK..but not for people with Disabilities...
This PITY and these Pathetic Violin BGM's and all those crap slow moments of all those programs are meant for People Who ,having blessed with everything still lacking SELF CONFIDENCE
It will be great if Judges can be more logical ( certainly not emotional)
and if those program managers can take some pain in understanding the difference between pity and selfesteem and stop all those crap things which are being done right now in the program..
I am skeptic if they want to do this program for ERP ratings...if not then certainly this should be a nice one if they can stop showing PITY towards them and start doing an other thing...
like...
Continuing this program and selecting few final participants...
Conducting an other Normal Competition between people who are pretty normal..
and the final contest should involve the selected final participants of both the shows...
Then the real competition will happen...As BLIND are EQUAL to any other person...now that competition will make them feel normal which is more essential and which gaurds their Self Esteem which is certainly important for any person....
Apart from all these...Few participants were Very good...Especially the participant who sang Mahapraana Deepam song...
None other than "Musical Competitions"....
So the competition became very heavy.. Not between the participants..but between the television channels
Inorder to withstand this competition..obviously one need to think more creatively...
One channel started a Little champs program which topped for few time..
That boom stopped when all the antagonists even started the same kinda shows.....
Now More creativeness is needed...and ETV came out with a Innovative thought and started a program
BLACK ~~ COLORS OF MUSIC
Anchoring...Jhansi
Judges.... Mohankrishna..Actress Laya....Lyricist Anantha Sriram
Innovation of this prg is ..all the participants of varied ages are BLIND and they will participate in this singing competition...
program will have 9 participants..whom they introduce with alot of PITY towards them....
Anchor will tell the name of the person and few shots will be shown at that participants home along with his family... They will shoot how that particular blind person walks holding the walls..or waving hands in air....
and the background music for these few snaps will be as pathos as possible
I seriously dont understand why they want to do all these idiotic things....
To be logical... Blind people are equal to any other human being..only that they cant see...fine...help them if they want you to...but why the hell they should have a separate program for Blind people all alone..They are equally good when compared to anyone else...
Only few blind people will have hearing problem..and that count will be very less
but all the participants were pretty okay and were singing as if anyother normal person...( for that even they are normal people...as these TV people made them special..i took this way of usage)
The funny part is...THE JUDGES...
Judgment in Music competitions is subjected to happen in 2 ways..
One is to judge how good they are technically...mean to say...The Sruthi..Laya..Thaalam and raagam..
Second way is to judge..how Melodious they are when compared to others...
For the first , Judge needs to be good at Music...
For the second,Judge needs to be so passionated towards Music to differentiate between good and bad music being a sensible listener....
The 3 judges of this program may fall in the second category(?) but certainly not in the first category....
And an other thing is... Whatever the participants sings....They will keep on telling..haaa...you sang it perfectly...i couldnt control my tears...i cant explain in words..and all that nonsense...
Judge is a Judge...Logic should alone be the criteria for the judgment...certainly not Emotions....
By being emotional and giving comments..they are showing the so called PITY on them that they are blind..
but i dont think they themselves feel anything pity about themselves...
Inspite,they are So Self Esteemed that, they took the challenge of travelling so far and participate in a game show..irrespective of the pain they need to take to come so long...
That itself shows their Self Esteem which is being treated with alot of PITY by these Media...
One more Funny part of this program is...
One female singer sang in a improper way..for which one of the Judge took the pain of telling that, you need to work more..Good that he dared to give that suggestion...
Funniest part was..when the judges were commenting so...Camera will cpature the still moments of the participant..consoling gestures of the anchor...accompanied by a Pathos Violin background score...
What the HELL it meant??????
Being Blind dosent mean that they can sing improper and gain applaudes which is certainly not deserved...
yes i do accept that everyone will not be so strong enough to come and participate in the normal programs..and this particular program may give them strength and may encourage them to walk on to the dias..but that certainly dosent mean that they are expected to be given some PITY....
PITY and MERCY are for WEAK..but not for people with Disabilities...
This PITY and these Pathetic Violin BGM's and all those crap slow moments of all those programs are meant for People Who ,having blessed with everything still lacking SELF CONFIDENCE
It will be great if Judges can be more logical ( certainly not emotional)
and if those program managers can take some pain in understanding the difference between pity and selfesteem and stop all those crap things which are being done right now in the program..
I am skeptic if they want to do this program for ERP ratings...if not then certainly this should be a nice one if they can stop showing PITY towards them and start doing an other thing...
like...
Continuing this program and selecting few final participants...
Conducting an other Normal Competition between people who are pretty normal..
and the final contest should involve the selected final participants of both the shows...
Then the real competition will happen...As BLIND are EQUAL to any other person...now that competition will make them feel normal which is more essential and which gaurds their Self Esteem which is certainly important for any person....
Apart from all these...Few participants were Very good...Especially the participant who sang Mahapraana Deepam song...
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Ram Gopal Varma – The Existence, The Independence.
Howard Roark, John Galt, Francisco d'Anconia, Dominique, Dagny Taggarat, kamal Haasan, Ramgopal Varma…. All belong to the same fraternity…
The Fraternity of “Living on ones own terms”
As per one of the famous Philosopher, “There are no facts only interpretations”
So this article is about my Interpretation on Ramu
What made me write this ???
My Reverent respect towards the people who stand again all Odd’s and Who believe in themselves to such an extent which makes them to Live only on their own Terms…but on nothing else.
Ramu is one of them.
Is he right or is he wrong? I don’t have any interest to answer this as Right and wrong are always subjective and perceptive.
I presume his attitude to be one of the finest attitudes possible, that alone makes me today to THINK ALOUD about him.
SHIVA—Debut film—Blockbuster of Ramu….
Initially I liked this film for Music
Then for Nagarjuna and his body histrionics
With the growing time and growing knowledge, started liking this film for the Technicalities… The scenes like, Nagarjuna trying to hit JD with a broken bottle-The camera Angle in this scene; Chinna while running away from villains, getting hit to the Pole—The brilliance of driving the concentration away from the pole ,till chinna goes and hits it by mistake.
His COMPANY..and the fantastic camera angles…
His Sarkar….For the amazing strength it got…..
So on so forth….
This made me follow his upcoming films.. Some sounded Wonderful..some sounded uttercrap..but somehow the instinct to watch his films continued.
In the process, got to read few of his interviews which made me understand his attitude to an extent…
Attitude..My bigger weakness….Always impressed by People with Fine attitude( def of fine attitude depends on my stance anyways)
The impression droved me to read all his interviews as well as watch him talking….
Probably then I became Fan to him…
He always sounds very strong..When asked
Q:. Where do you find your strength?
Ramu: In my will to be what I am.
My interpretation on why people hate Ramu lead me to few observations..
He is marked as a selfish as always he keeps on telling that “I live for my own happiness”.
As a matter of fact, everyone lives for their own Happiness…
When thought on a deeper note… Let’s start with charity institutions….
They claim themselves selfless ….No selfishness involved…
They are certainly doing a good job..no second thought but coming to this to this selfless ness…..Is it true?
They are serving people because..Because..Because…that makes them happy at the day end..that makes them feel that they have done something good which ultimately leads to their own satisfaction and happiness.
Leaving all those people behind, lets talk about people who blame some one else to be selfish…. For ex: People blame Ramu when he says that I live for myself & I am not into any social service…..
Infact he is far better than a lot of people who are pointing their fingers to him, He is doing Social service in another sense,
By not HARMING any one
By not intruding into any one’s life
By not giving unnecessary suggestions to anyone
By not bluffing himself to be social
By not claiming to be selfless by just giving a rupee or 2 to beggars
By not displaying the fake generosity
By not disguising himself to be an intellectual and behind the screen proving to be an idiot
All the people who state he is a selfish idiot….do they really think themselves to be selfless?
Working for any charity doesn’t prove one to be selfless, thinking about others life’s for no reason is not divine
The parameters or rather the criteria for being selfish are something different…
Everyone in the creation is selfish. Period….
We love someone, and we do certain things for their happiness….and claim at the end, that it’s a selfless Love…
We do all those things to make them happy..Which ultimately makes us happy…and the equation ends with a reminder of Selfishness again…
Love itself is selfish. Then where come this selfless Love exist?
The basic Rights of Human Being are….
• Right to THINK
• Right to LIVE
• Right to ACT
• Right to FEEL
Do every human being avail those rights now?
He can think but many other factors like social acceptance, satisfying the fellow human beings and making sure that his thoughts don’t hurt the other beings are the basic hindrances one does face.
Social acceptance…. Society….Why should one satisfy Society killing one’s self?? Is it because man is a social being and need to get on with the prerogative rules.????
What do these rules talk about???
Why does one need to satisfy the people who are more interested in Gossips rather than facts?
Until and unless one’s thought is not harming anyone… no thought is subjective to any social acceptance…. Understanding this itself is a victory and implementing this a CHALLENGE which Ramu WON..and the prize is the “Selfish” Tag he have now.
Q: Are you selfish? Is selfishness a sin? Are you an atheist?
Ramu: - Yes I am. Nothing is a sin as long as you are not consciously hurting others. Yes I am an atheist.
LIVE: do we avail this right???
Life is something which is ones Own , which makes us feel our Existence.
If everyone can live their own life’s rather than pondering into someone else’s life and interests then LIVING becomes an other VICTORY.
Take any disaster; analysis aftermath will surely lead to a point where in the root cause will be the Interest and intrusion into others life
Terrorist attacks….
Wars….
Crime….
Everything….
Terrorism wants others to practice their own interests..not happening on which they attack..
War…happens when they expect the others to do certain things not happening on which war breaks out….
Any disaster for that matter is because of certain expectations…..
Without expectations..Live and Let Live happens….
Accepting this fact is wisdom..which Ramu has….
He is Living his life..every minute of his life…
Q: Is it my problem if I have higher expectations from you?
Ramu: It will be a problem for you if you have expectations from anyone including your family, your government and also God. The secret of a happy life is not to have expectations from anybody except yourself.
ACT: Acting on ones own terms….
How many one of us can do things only because they like it..not because they need to satisfy someone ???
We need not answer anyone but surely need to answer our conscience
Though people of this class are there who act on their own terms. still they do have certain instances where in they don’t….. and the residue hurts them….
Ramu Acts on his own terms
Q:You think like this because you are successful.
Ramu: I am successful because I think like this.
FEEL: Pathetic thing is that, people stop feeling about certain things only because society claims it to be a SIN…..
If you feel something..feel it for all the reasons..but not 2 satisfy someone else…
Q: I don’t think you are eccentric, just emotionally intense and complex.
Ramu: If you promise not to tell anybody, I am also a very nice guy.
Q: Do you fear death?
Ramu: No. But I love life too much.
In my childhood I read a book by the name “Amaravathi Kadhalu” which later on was picturised and telecasted as a serial in DD national channel.
That book is of 100 short stories, in which one was my all time fav…The name of that story is “malli thellavaarindhi”( which meant, Again( another) the day started”)
That’s a 2 page story, which talks about the daily routine of a person, who never interferes into anyone’s life but goes on doing his own tasks, not getting involved into anything but his life.
He dies on one fine day and people come and express their grief and goes away.
That’s the story..
Gist is that … “Though he hasn’t done anything remarkable in his life, still he is marvelous by not doing any disaster and sticking to living his own life and letting others live theirs”
I am reminded of that story when ever I hear few comments on Ramu.
Attitude which is quite remarkable and quite a good sensible is something need to be applauded..which I do for Ramu…
Few excerpts from his interviews depicting his Attitude:
Q: What is right and what is wrong?
Ramu: What you can get away with is right and what you can’t is wrong. The things which will affect and influence that is religion, morality, social standards and the law.
Q. I can’t believe your rudeness. What do you think of yourself?
Ramu: Too much
Q: Do you know you have given people like me the courage to face a life-time.
Ramu: I am truly happy to know that but just remember it’s not about facing life but it’s about flowing with it. Life, time and destiny do not stop for anybody. It’s up to you to understand it and use its strength as an addition to your own individual strength.
Q: A. what does Mani Ratnam think of your cinema?
B. What do you think of his cinema?
Ramu: - A. Nothing
B. Nothing
Q. I don’t think you are eccentric, just emotionally intense and complex.
Ramu: If you promise not to tell anybody, I am also a very nice guy.
There is an Advertisement for Apple IPOD. With a Tag line..” Your Music Your Identity” , that’s absolutely true…..When discussing about choices and interests and Favorites…
We like certain book not only because of the content,also that we connect to that in one way or the other..
For eg… The same film will be liked by several people for several reasons…
My friend and myself, we both like a film called “Athadu”, both for different reasons, I like that film for Dialogues and my friend likes it for Mahesh Babu.. so the bottom line is , one need to have a connecting factor which drives them to like it.. This in turn depicts that our choice is our attitude most of the times.
Q: Why do your fans like you even when you are so frank and rude to them?
Ramu: Because deep inside they are frank and rude too and hence they connect.
May be i like him for the same reason :)
“Neither love nor fame nor cash is a value if obtained by fraud”—Ayn Rand
Today for what all he is being applauded and cursed ..its all his OWN. his OWN …
He claims no invaluable Love, No Invaluable Fame , No Invaluable Cash
The curses itself reveals his victory, which came out of the Jealous every weak have on the strong
He is being cursed for his Attitude, the same is seething a lot others like me to admire him.
Ramu…The Existence which is as real as LIFE…The Independence which is a Triumph…
Incidentally..Dec 31st is one of my two fav days, its my pleasure to pen down about my Fav Attitude….Ramu
All the questions I quoted as excerpts from his interviews are collected mostly from his blog
http://rgvarma.spaces.live.com/
If interested to explore…. It drives you crazy….check it out…
Every post sounded worth reading…
With all the pride claiming myself to be his avid Fan.... :)
Bowing in front of the GUTS he got which is making him accept all his faluts without any impediment, Which is letting him believe in himself,which is making him live on his own terms ,which Infact is the Highest Achievement of any Human Being
-- Srujana
The Fraternity of “Living on ones own terms”
As per one of the famous Philosopher, “There are no facts only interpretations”
So this article is about my Interpretation on Ramu
What made me write this ???
My Reverent respect towards the people who stand again all Odd’s and Who believe in themselves to such an extent which makes them to Live only on their own Terms…but on nothing else.
Ramu is one of them.
Is he right or is he wrong? I don’t have any interest to answer this as Right and wrong are always subjective and perceptive.
I presume his attitude to be one of the finest attitudes possible, that alone makes me today to THINK ALOUD about him.
SHIVA—Debut film—Blockbuster of Ramu….
Initially I liked this film for Music
Then for Nagarjuna and his body histrionics
With the growing time and growing knowledge, started liking this film for the Technicalities… The scenes like, Nagarjuna trying to hit JD with a broken bottle-The camera Angle in this scene; Chinna while running away from villains, getting hit to the Pole—The brilliance of driving the concentration away from the pole ,till chinna goes and hits it by mistake.
His COMPANY..and the fantastic camera angles…
His Sarkar….For the amazing strength it got…..
So on so forth….
This made me follow his upcoming films.. Some sounded Wonderful..some sounded uttercrap..but somehow the instinct to watch his films continued.
In the process, got to read few of his interviews which made me understand his attitude to an extent…
Attitude..My bigger weakness….Always impressed by People with Fine attitude( def of fine attitude depends on my stance anyways)
The impression droved me to read all his interviews as well as watch him talking….
Probably then I became Fan to him…
He always sounds very strong..When asked
Q:. Where do you find your strength?
Ramu: In my will to be what I am.
My interpretation on why people hate Ramu lead me to few observations..
He is marked as a selfish as always he keeps on telling that “I live for my own happiness”.
As a matter of fact, everyone lives for their own Happiness…
When thought on a deeper note… Let’s start with charity institutions….
They claim themselves selfless ….No selfishness involved…
They are certainly doing a good job..no second thought but coming to this to this selfless ness…..Is it true?
They are serving people because..Because..Because…that makes them happy at the day end..that makes them feel that they have done something good which ultimately leads to their own satisfaction and happiness.
Leaving all those people behind, lets talk about people who blame some one else to be selfish…. For ex: People blame Ramu when he says that I live for myself & I am not into any social service…..
Infact he is far better than a lot of people who are pointing their fingers to him, He is doing Social service in another sense,
By not HARMING any one
By not intruding into any one’s life
By not giving unnecessary suggestions to anyone
By not bluffing himself to be social
By not claiming to be selfless by just giving a rupee or 2 to beggars
By not displaying the fake generosity
By not disguising himself to be an intellectual and behind the screen proving to be an idiot
All the people who state he is a selfish idiot….do they really think themselves to be selfless?
Working for any charity doesn’t prove one to be selfless, thinking about others life’s for no reason is not divine
The parameters or rather the criteria for being selfish are something different…
Everyone in the creation is selfish. Period….
We love someone, and we do certain things for their happiness….and claim at the end, that it’s a selfless Love…
We do all those things to make them happy..Which ultimately makes us happy…and the equation ends with a reminder of Selfishness again…
Love itself is selfish. Then where come this selfless Love exist?
The basic Rights of Human Being are….
• Right to THINK
• Right to LIVE
• Right to ACT
• Right to FEEL
Do every human being avail those rights now?
He can think but many other factors like social acceptance, satisfying the fellow human beings and making sure that his thoughts don’t hurt the other beings are the basic hindrances one does face.
Social acceptance…. Society….Why should one satisfy Society killing one’s self?? Is it because man is a social being and need to get on with the prerogative rules.????
What do these rules talk about???
Why does one need to satisfy the people who are more interested in Gossips rather than facts?
Until and unless one’s thought is not harming anyone… no thought is subjective to any social acceptance…. Understanding this itself is a victory and implementing this a CHALLENGE which Ramu WON..and the prize is the “Selfish” Tag he have now.
Q: Are you selfish? Is selfishness a sin? Are you an atheist?
Ramu: - Yes I am. Nothing is a sin as long as you are not consciously hurting others. Yes I am an atheist.
LIVE: do we avail this right???
Life is something which is ones Own , which makes us feel our Existence.
If everyone can live their own life’s rather than pondering into someone else’s life and interests then LIVING becomes an other VICTORY.
Take any disaster; analysis aftermath will surely lead to a point where in the root cause will be the Interest and intrusion into others life
Terrorist attacks….
Wars….
Crime….
Everything….
Terrorism wants others to practice their own interests..not happening on which they attack..
War…happens when they expect the others to do certain things not happening on which war breaks out….
Any disaster for that matter is because of certain expectations…..
Without expectations..Live and Let Live happens….
Accepting this fact is wisdom..which Ramu has….
He is Living his life..every minute of his life…
Q: Is it my problem if I have higher expectations from you?
Ramu: It will be a problem for you if you have expectations from anyone including your family, your government and also God. The secret of a happy life is not to have expectations from anybody except yourself.
ACT: Acting on ones own terms….
How many one of us can do things only because they like it..not because they need to satisfy someone ???
We need not answer anyone but surely need to answer our conscience
Though people of this class are there who act on their own terms. still they do have certain instances where in they don’t….. and the residue hurts them….
Ramu Acts on his own terms
Q:You think like this because you are successful.
Ramu: I am successful because I think like this.
FEEL: Pathetic thing is that, people stop feeling about certain things only because society claims it to be a SIN…..
If you feel something..feel it for all the reasons..but not 2 satisfy someone else…
Q: I don’t think you are eccentric, just emotionally intense and complex.
Ramu: If you promise not to tell anybody, I am also a very nice guy.
Q: Do you fear death?
Ramu: No. But I love life too much.
In my childhood I read a book by the name “Amaravathi Kadhalu” which later on was picturised and telecasted as a serial in DD national channel.
That book is of 100 short stories, in which one was my all time fav…The name of that story is “malli thellavaarindhi”( which meant, Again( another) the day started”)
That’s a 2 page story, which talks about the daily routine of a person, who never interferes into anyone’s life but goes on doing his own tasks, not getting involved into anything but his life.
He dies on one fine day and people come and express their grief and goes away.
That’s the story..
Gist is that … “Though he hasn’t done anything remarkable in his life, still he is marvelous by not doing any disaster and sticking to living his own life and letting others live theirs”
I am reminded of that story when ever I hear few comments on Ramu.
Attitude which is quite remarkable and quite a good sensible is something need to be applauded..which I do for Ramu…
Few excerpts from his interviews depicting his Attitude:
Q: What is right and what is wrong?
Ramu: What you can get away with is right and what you can’t is wrong. The things which will affect and influence that is religion, morality, social standards and the law.
Q. I can’t believe your rudeness. What do you think of yourself?
Ramu: Too much
Q: Do you know you have given people like me the courage to face a life-time.
Ramu: I am truly happy to know that but just remember it’s not about facing life but it’s about flowing with it. Life, time and destiny do not stop for anybody. It’s up to you to understand it and use its strength as an addition to your own individual strength.
Q: A. what does Mani Ratnam think of your cinema?
B. What do you think of his cinema?
Ramu: - A. Nothing
B. Nothing
Q. I don’t think you are eccentric, just emotionally intense and complex.
Ramu: If you promise not to tell anybody, I am also a very nice guy.
There is an Advertisement for Apple IPOD. With a Tag line..” Your Music Your Identity” , that’s absolutely true…..When discussing about choices and interests and Favorites…
We like certain book not only because of the content,also that we connect to that in one way or the other..
For eg… The same film will be liked by several people for several reasons…
My friend and myself, we both like a film called “Athadu”, both for different reasons, I like that film for Dialogues and my friend likes it for Mahesh Babu.. so the bottom line is , one need to have a connecting factor which drives them to like it.. This in turn depicts that our choice is our attitude most of the times.
Q: Why do your fans like you even when you are so frank and rude to them?
Ramu: Because deep inside they are frank and rude too and hence they connect.
May be i like him for the same reason :)
“Neither love nor fame nor cash is a value if obtained by fraud”—Ayn Rand
Today for what all he is being applauded and cursed ..its all his OWN. his OWN …
He claims no invaluable Love, No Invaluable Fame , No Invaluable Cash
The curses itself reveals his victory, which came out of the Jealous every weak have on the strong
He is being cursed for his Attitude, the same is seething a lot others like me to admire him.
Ramu…The Existence which is as real as LIFE…The Independence which is a Triumph…
Incidentally..Dec 31st is one of my two fav days, its my pleasure to pen down about my Fav Attitude….Ramu
All the questions I quoted as excerpts from his interviews are collected mostly from his blog
http://rgvarma.spaces.live.com/
If interested to explore…. It drives you crazy….check it out…
Every post sounded worth reading…
With all the pride claiming myself to be his avid Fan.... :)
Bowing in front of the GUTS he got which is making him accept all his faluts without any impediment, Which is letting him believe in himself,which is making him live on his own terms ,which Infact is the Highest Achievement of any Human Being
-- Srujana
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Dark can admire Light
Inspite of all the wonderful things given to man...they often tend to forget the Light in themselves...
May be i am not an exception for that...
Always Humans thinks that GOD has given me alot of problems and ofcourse one alone can understand the pain he is going through...
May be true.. But when one can see what Real DARK means..then probably life becomes colorful to maximum extent...
Today, Early in the morning, was standing 20 steps behind the Bus stop, waiting for my company bus ... observed a Woman standing on the pavement,she was there staring at people from past 20 minutes, she cannot see me as i am behind her, after 30 mins of vexation in waiting for the bus, i went few steps ahead because of which she came to see me and started giving those same keen staring looks which she was passing from past 30 minutes , towards all the people crossing her.
i was really suprised to see her looks which had a intention of knowing something from the person whom she was staring at.
She waved at me when i was about to move from that place, i was just curious to know what she wanted to talk, as by then she was trying to talk to alot of people who were crossing by.
I went to her with a frown on my face and asked her "What?", she asked me.."Are you about to go to that end of the road? if so then can you please help me in crossing the road, as i cant see properly".
Bound for a minute, i was silent and then responded back telling that , yeah sure, i dont mind,please come along with me.
Was making her hold my hand and was walking along with her, as it was Chouraasthaa...need to cross 2 busy crossings at a time.
She started telling me, "Sorry to bother you, i think you are not about to cross the road..isint it??, i was trying to cross from past half an hour, but couldnt find any one who are crossing the road, as you were anyways looking at me, i got a chance to wave at you, or else i wouldn't have bothered you."
It obviously ticked me. I asked her,"i have been observing you from past a few time, so many people crossed the road and infact they crossed you as well, you should have asked them which would have saved you from standing there for so long time"
she said "may be, but the problem is, i can see only objects which are close to 2-3 steps from me, and by the time i recognize , people will leave"
After going to that edge,she waved me back saying a Thanks and a Happy New year.
Feeling is Different from Knowing...
I always know that people are there with alot of more problems than me, but i never FELT the same.Today i felt it
She was waiting for someone to come, just to cross a road, she is compelled to depend on someone, irrespective of her selfesteem, she has to Depend,sounded very pathetic.
I am not at all feeling pity about her physical disorder, but for sure her Helplessness is something Quite Pathetic... Seeing that DARK...my Admiration to LIGHT increased
May be i am not an exception for that...
Always Humans thinks that GOD has given me alot of problems and ofcourse one alone can understand the pain he is going through...
May be true.. But when one can see what Real DARK means..then probably life becomes colorful to maximum extent...
Today, Early in the morning, was standing 20 steps behind the Bus stop, waiting for my company bus ... observed a Woman standing on the pavement,she was there staring at people from past 20 minutes, she cannot see me as i am behind her, after 30 mins of vexation in waiting for the bus, i went few steps ahead because of which she came to see me and started giving those same keen staring looks which she was passing from past 30 minutes , towards all the people crossing her.
i was really suprised to see her looks which had a intention of knowing something from the person whom she was staring at.
She waved at me when i was about to move from that place, i was just curious to know what she wanted to talk, as by then she was trying to talk to alot of people who were crossing by.
I went to her with a frown on my face and asked her "What?", she asked me.."Are you about to go to that end of the road? if so then can you please help me in crossing the road, as i cant see properly".
Bound for a minute, i was silent and then responded back telling that , yeah sure, i dont mind,please come along with me.
Was making her hold my hand and was walking along with her, as it was Chouraasthaa...need to cross 2 busy crossings at a time.
She started telling me, "Sorry to bother you, i think you are not about to cross the road..isint it??, i was trying to cross from past half an hour, but couldnt find any one who are crossing the road, as you were anyways looking at me, i got a chance to wave at you, or else i wouldn't have bothered you."
It obviously ticked me. I asked her,"i have been observing you from past a few time, so many people crossed the road and infact they crossed you as well, you should have asked them which would have saved you from standing there for so long time"
she said "may be, but the problem is, i can see only objects which are close to 2-3 steps from me, and by the time i recognize , people will leave"
After going to that edge,she waved me back saying a Thanks and a Happy New year.
Feeling is Different from Knowing...
I always know that people are there with alot of more problems than me, but i never FELT the same.Today i felt it
She was waiting for someone to come, just to cross a road, she is compelled to depend on someone, irrespective of her selfesteem, she has to Depend,sounded very pathetic.
I am not at all feeling pity about her physical disorder, but for sure her Helplessness is something Quite Pathetic... Seeing that DARK...my Admiration to LIGHT increased
Money Vs Mind
Money.... Is it Wicked???
Stance..Always counts....
It is wicked when its not readily available in the needy hour...
Other times, rarely a piece of topic to converse...
Man needs for money varies...
Some need for exsistence, some need for Luxury, some to save for the next generations.
Mind can make Money but unfortunately the Viceversa is not possible !!!!!!!!
Got to see alot of problems Money causes ...
I have few friends who have more asset of Mind than Money, but the funny thing is that their Minds are not being capable of making Money because of the Hinderance called LUCK...
I always believe that MAN's BRAIN is the biggest wonder in the GOD's(?) creation, the way it relates things, the way it analyzes, the amount of creativity which made him build everything of this world, so certainly BRAIN IS THE SUPER POWER. Then why the hell cant a man with BRAIN make money in all the ODD situations????
May be because of the other MINDS related in the viscous loop ...The conflicts and manipulations around ..which obviously MIND needs to be capable of handling..without which one ends in making a statement that LUCK is the hinderance...
INSTINCT...certainly is the biggest weapon one can ever have against the ODD's.. dont know how far this works..as i always believe this but experienced only few times in quite a few subtle situations..
But most of the times as Belief is the alone Boost to go on, that may be right...
Enough of RANT....
The simple question always ponders in my Mind is...
When MIND = 100 and MONEY < ( MIND -100) Then why the hell MONEY > MIND??????????
Stance..Always counts....
It is wicked when its not readily available in the needy hour...
Other times, rarely a piece of topic to converse...
Man needs for money varies...
Some need for exsistence, some need for Luxury, some to save for the next generations.
Mind can make Money but unfortunately the Viceversa is not possible !!!!!!!!
Got to see alot of problems Money causes ...
I have few friends who have more asset of Mind than Money, but the funny thing is that their Minds are not being capable of making Money because of the Hinderance called LUCK...
I always believe that MAN's BRAIN is the biggest wonder in the GOD's(?) creation, the way it relates things, the way it analyzes, the amount of creativity which made him build everything of this world, so certainly BRAIN IS THE SUPER POWER. Then why the hell cant a man with BRAIN make money in all the ODD situations????
May be because of the other MINDS related in the viscous loop ...The conflicts and manipulations around ..which obviously MIND needs to be capable of handling..without which one ends in making a statement that LUCK is the hinderance...
INSTINCT...certainly is the biggest weapon one can ever have against the ODD's.. dont know how far this works..as i always believe this but experienced only few times in quite a few subtle situations..
But most of the times as Belief is the alone Boost to go on, that may be right...
Enough of RANT....
The simple question always ponders in my Mind is...
When MIND = 100 and MONEY < ( MIND -100) Then why the hell MONEY > MIND??????????
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